Hi, I'm Sam,
They easily say to me "water is life" but I end up finding out myself that too much of it will cause devastating harm to me. Some have also argued between lack of water and lack of light in the house which is worse, and it doesn't matter which side of the argument you defend, the general truth is that too much of anything is bad, be it too much lack or too much possession of something. Every aspect of life is supposed to be met with balance, it could be two or three things but no matter how many things there are, the gift to master balance in every aspect of things I do or want is what I always desire and strive for.
I just realized recently that I'm a memory hoarder, and no one pointed it out to me, I figured it out after it dawned on me that people come to me to remind them of something that happened a long time in the past. In some instances, I don't even need to be there, just the fact that they told me about what happened, they just expect me to remind them or keep the memory for them and without hesitation or failure I've been doing a good job at being reliable in that aspect. My skill as a memory hoarder has also made me prioritize organization because in typical sense of hoarding, its always the cluster and keeping of important and non important things but in my case I've made sure to keep the relevant memories and keep them tidy and because the human brain cannot be one hundred percent all the time, I try not to rely solely on my memory to keep things. I write things down, carefully store items or take pictures and videos because I love how I am able to feel like I am able to time travel when I flip through pictures, videos and notes in my journal, I am able to relive the smell, moments and emotions at the point the memory was captured and I consider that an extremely beautiful thing to experience.
I've always been the person that will always choose cash gift whenever I'm celebrating anything, well I only celebrate birthdays intimately now but I'd always choose cash gifts and people dear to me have always complained but lately I've realized that maybe getting a thoughtful gift might be a better option because I will spend the money and may not remember what I spent it on but the material thoughtful things will be there longer than the money will ever be in this economic crisis we currently find ourselves in. My thoughts on thoughtful gifting changed while trying to shop for a close friend on his birthday. My initial thought was to do what I requested to be done for me which was send money, but it felt incomplete to me. They have tried to explain the feeling of just sending money but I never could understand, I was so adamant and insisted on what I wanted, but going through the process of brainstorming, stepping out and putting so much thought into getting a gift gave me a feeling that finally presenting the gift would complete. Any day he picks up the gift, he will always be reminded of that years birthday and I don't think you need to be a memory hoarder to always cherish it. Its definitely not because of vibe that I would put everything i have to do on hold to go out just to find the right gift for a friend, money can be sent other days and they will be appreciated, but for special occasions, I am now fully of the opinion that physical thoughtful gifts will always be the better option.
Its easy to feel like someone else is doing more important work and as a result I sometimes find myself trying to water down whatever I find myself doing at any given time. I had a hard time genuinely admitting to things that gave me joy and purpose. It took me a while to get to the point that I can admit what makes me happy because somehow I subscribed to the idea of vibing with people around me, people my age and people who look and sound like me. The feeling that I have to hide certain parts of me was overwhelming because someone will think something differently to what I think about it and somehow it becomes my fault that I presented something that I loved to someone and I now have to deal with the feeling of disappointment that people do not vibe with it. I had to learn the beauty in variety, the internal quietness in diversity, the joy in having things that can just be for me and different from what someone else might intensely desires.
Life is always moving and as much as we may say we're just vibing, and most times that is not the reality so many of us live in. Its smart to live and enjoy life but its quite impossible to vibe through life without intentions and expect to make a lasting mark on people and earth. Whether I take the time to acknowledge life based on vibe or intention, it won't change the fact that life is moving and things are happening with or without my audacious acts.
I just realized recently that I'm a memory hoarder, and no one pointed it out to me, I figured it out after it dawned on me that people come to me to remind them of something that happened a long time in the past. In some instances, I don't even need to be there, just the fact that they told me about what happened, they just expect me to remind them or keep the memory for them and without hesitation or failure I've been doing a good job at being reliable in that aspect. My skill as a memory hoarder has also made me prioritize organization because in typical sense of hoarding, its always the cluster and keeping of important and non important things but in my case I've made sure to keep the relevant memories and keep them tidy and because the human brain cannot be one hundred percent all the time, I try not to rely solely on my memory to keep things. I write things down, carefully store items or take pictures and videos because I love how I am able to feel like I am able to time travel when I flip through pictures, videos and notes in my journal, I am able to relive the smell, moments and emotions at the point the memory was captured and I consider that an extremely beautiful thing to experience.
I've always been the person that will always choose cash gift whenever I'm celebrating anything, well I only celebrate birthdays intimately now but I'd always choose cash gifts and people dear to me have always complained but lately I've realized that maybe getting a thoughtful gift might be a better option because I will spend the money and may not remember what I spent it on but the material thoughtful things will be there longer than the money will ever be in this economic crisis we currently find ourselves in. My thoughts on thoughtful gifting changed while trying to shop for a close friend on his birthday. My initial thought was to do what I requested to be done for me which was send money, but it felt incomplete to me. They have tried to explain the feeling of just sending money but I never could understand, I was so adamant and insisted on what I wanted, but going through the process of brainstorming, stepping out and putting so much thought into getting a gift gave me a feeling that finally presenting the gift would complete. Any day he picks up the gift, he will always be reminded of that years birthday and I don't think you need to be a memory hoarder to always cherish it. Its definitely not because of vibe that I would put everything i have to do on hold to go out just to find the right gift for a friend, money can be sent other days and they will be appreciated, but for special occasions, I am now fully of the opinion that physical thoughtful gifts will always be the better option.
Its easy to feel like someone else is doing more important work and as a result I sometimes find myself trying to water down whatever I find myself doing at any given time. I had a hard time genuinely admitting to things that gave me joy and purpose. It took me a while to get to the point that I can admit what makes me happy because somehow I subscribed to the idea of vibing with people around me, people my age and people who look and sound like me. The feeling that I have to hide certain parts of me was overwhelming because someone will think something differently to what I think about it and somehow it becomes my fault that I presented something that I loved to someone and I now have to deal with the feeling of disappointment that people do not vibe with it. I had to learn the beauty in variety, the internal quietness in diversity, the joy in having things that can just be for me and different from what someone else might intensely desires.
Life is always moving and as much as we may say we're just vibing, and most times that is not the reality so many of us live in. Its smart to live and enjoy life but its quite impossible to vibe through life without intentions and expect to make a lasting mark on people and earth. Whether I take the time to acknowledge life based on vibe or intention, it won't change the fact that life is moving and things are happening with or without my audacious acts.