Hi, I’m Sam,
When it comes to opening up to people, I follow my
instincts to trust so easily and I've never been burnt from that which is why I
think I still do it. I don't think there is anything about or in my life at
this moment that at least 2 persons are unaware of. My circle is pretty tight
but not everyone in my circle knows absolutely everything. I don't open up to
anyone in my circle with any atom of fear of lack of confidentiality. I
think one of the reasons why I tend to overshare is because I want to hold
myself and be held accountable for whatever I say. If I share a plan, I
want to be held responsible to make sure I work hard enough to achieve whatever
it is I say. Telling someone for me means putting it out into the universe and
won't be able to lie and say I never wanted to do that or never said such a
thing.
I have always had this intense fear and discomfort
with sharing anything about me especially my thoughts on the internet. It took
a lot of prayers and sermons for me to accept that it was what I was meant to
be doing and as such made me feel like I don't need to do it to feel complete
but it has given me a sense of purpose and I have always known deep down that
it is what I am meant to be doing but the kind of fear the gripped me didn't
even let me share my thoughts in the comment section of any post let alone
start sharing things unprovoked as a post. I am happy for those who have
discovered their true paths in life and not just doing anything because it is
the new buzz or way to make money. I just wish a lot more people would be
honest, truly honest with living their lives and what they are meant to be
doing.
It took me a while but I've learned to always trust my
instincts, and it is not about being right but about feeling right even when
I'm not right, I will certainly have 2 or more lessons to learn and apply to
myself which makes my future Intuitions even more fitting.
I have no idea if it’s a good thing or not, but I live
in a bubble, a self-sufficient bubble that has everything I need to thrive in
life and as such I am detached from a lot of reality and even when I face any
of the realities that I have detached myself from, I tend to handle it very
well because I don't consider them as a constant occurrence in my life, in
order words, there's no point reacting as though it will happen again soon.
I am not one of those people who say they're hard on
themselves. Yes, I am my biggest critic but I am never hard on myself, if
anything, I give myself more grace than anyone would ever give me, whenever I
fall, I will be the first to get up and dust myself even before anyone else
finds out I fell. I try to be more disciplined so there will be a balance
between giving myself enough grace to function without self-doubt or hate and
doing what I'm meant to do with little missteps here and there.
I can be brutally honest with myself when assessing
myself, I would never sugarcoat anything when I am assessing myself, because I
see it as an opportunity to grade myself and I will not know how to move
forward and do things right if I try to pamper myself and lie to myself.
For a while now, I've tried my best to know what my
strengths are, I think my strengths change depending on the situation but I've
also tried to know the ones that have remained constant and I try to pride
myself in them and they are;
1) I apologize genuinely (if I don't mean it, I will
not apologize) and in most cases don't repeat what I apologize for
2) I try my best to be truthful as much and as often
as I can because my word is my bond
3) I find it easier to reciprocate positive vibes than
negative vibes, I simply distant myself from anything negative.
4) People trust me easily.
I want to listen more, to advice, to instructions, to
observations, and to myself. I want to be able to know when to listen to myself
and when to observe so that I can function and be better.