Hi, I'm Sam,
Some people say they want to perform on a level playing field, all the external and internal factors should be the same for everyone. No one should have an upper hand, but I have always wanted to know what makes the playing field level for everyone. The plain fact that not everyone wants the same thing has already made the playing field seem uneven. The desire not to want so much out of life might make it seem like someone has it easier than someone who wants so much of everything out of life, the desire not to stress for so much places your comfort and acceptance level lower than that of someone who wants everything possible. No one is better than the other, the only important thing is that you're doing exactly what you desire.
I always wondered how older people are so ok with getting old and living happily, then I realized that the same way that I have no desire to relive my teenage years and focused on getting better everyday and enjoying each day and whatever comes my way is the same way older people have no desire to rewind their years and be younger. Some may want to look younger than they are but not necessarily get younger. I think that if I had to relive my teenage years without the knowledge of having lived it before, there's every chance that I might not do anything differently because when I was living those years, I didn't think there was anything I could've done better, I still acted on impulse sometimes or on advice some other time but the good thing in both scenarios was that I was gaining experiences either way. I can only live differently if I'm to relive those years with the knowledge of doing things a certain way prior. With age comes experiences, not necessarily wisdom, those experiences makes sure that there isn't any vacuum in our lives lived, there wouldn't be much desire to get younger but maybe a wish to have done something slightly different and that wish comes as a result of experience gotten after doing something the way you did it in the past.
I find joy in escaping reality for moments by day dreaming, feels like I go to secret garden and locations in my mind. In what can be described as another perfectly curated environment, you are in a room, not too dark but not bright at all, enveloped in sounds and screens almost like a movie theater but better. You can choose to lay down, sit, stand or cross your legs under you but the ultimate goal is to feel comfortable and relaxed in whatever position you choose, and you are free to change your position anytime. You sit or lie there, carefree, not thinking of anything in particular but feeling good in the moment. You try to figure out what song will express exactly how you feel in the moment or what song can make you even more relaxed than you are and you play the song in the loudest and cleanest form and try to get a different meaning to the song or attach an emotion different from the one you've attached to the song in the past. The goal of this escape in that moment in time no matter how long it may seem to last is to feel good, to feel centered, to feel like your best emotional self because one thing everyone in that room ultimately know is that the feeling and being in that space won't be forever, you may not know exactly when it will end but it will definitely end. It will feel good enough for long enough and depending on how you look at it. It is possible for the escape to have a positive influence on your reality or you can spend time complaining about how the moment didn't last forever and question what and what you can do to make it last forever which will take away the joys in your reality.
Good enough to me will never mean mediocre, it will always mean sufficient for the purpose at hand, not everything and every aspect of us should be extraordinary and that idea is deeply human. It’s not about achieving perfection but about adaptability, patience, and self-loving and expression. By embracing "good enough for long enough," we grant ourselves the grace to live fully in the moment without the constant burden of chasing an idea. After all, sometimes what seems small or temporary turns out to be exactly what we needed.
There's truth in laughter, nervous or not, there's truth in questioning, sometimes its not obvious, you have to pay attention and look for it and sometimes you find it glaring at you like a spotlight. You can make your reality good enough for as long as you want, everything won't be perfect, that's for sure, your little escapes can help reduce the weight of emotions in your reality that you do not find palatable for the better, you should want to enjoy your reality and thrive on whatever field level you find yourself.
I always wondered how older people are so ok with getting old and living happily, then I realized that the same way that I have no desire to relive my teenage years and focused on getting better everyday and enjoying each day and whatever comes my way is the same way older people have no desire to rewind their years and be younger. Some may want to look younger than they are but not necessarily get younger. I think that if I had to relive my teenage years without the knowledge of having lived it before, there's every chance that I might not do anything differently because when I was living those years, I didn't think there was anything I could've done better, I still acted on impulse sometimes or on advice some other time but the good thing in both scenarios was that I was gaining experiences either way. I can only live differently if I'm to relive those years with the knowledge of doing things a certain way prior. With age comes experiences, not necessarily wisdom, those experiences makes sure that there isn't any vacuum in our lives lived, there wouldn't be much desire to get younger but maybe a wish to have done something slightly different and that wish comes as a result of experience gotten after doing something the way you did it in the past.
I find joy in escaping reality for moments by day dreaming, feels like I go to secret garden and locations in my mind. In what can be described as another perfectly curated environment, you are in a room, not too dark but not bright at all, enveloped in sounds and screens almost like a movie theater but better. You can choose to lay down, sit, stand or cross your legs under you but the ultimate goal is to feel comfortable and relaxed in whatever position you choose, and you are free to change your position anytime. You sit or lie there, carefree, not thinking of anything in particular but feeling good in the moment. You try to figure out what song will express exactly how you feel in the moment or what song can make you even more relaxed than you are and you play the song in the loudest and cleanest form and try to get a different meaning to the song or attach an emotion different from the one you've attached to the song in the past. The goal of this escape in that moment in time no matter how long it may seem to last is to feel good, to feel centered, to feel like your best emotional self because one thing everyone in that room ultimately know is that the feeling and being in that space won't be forever, you may not know exactly when it will end but it will definitely end. It will feel good enough for long enough and depending on how you look at it. It is possible for the escape to have a positive influence on your reality or you can spend time complaining about how the moment didn't last forever and question what and what you can do to make it last forever which will take away the joys in your reality.
Good enough to me will never mean mediocre, it will always mean sufficient for the purpose at hand, not everything and every aspect of us should be extraordinary and that idea is deeply human. It’s not about achieving perfection but about adaptability, patience, and self-loving and expression. By embracing "good enough for long enough," we grant ourselves the grace to live fully in the moment without the constant burden of chasing an idea. After all, sometimes what seems small or temporary turns out to be exactly what we needed.
There's truth in laughter, nervous or not, there's truth in questioning, sometimes its not obvious, you have to pay attention and look for it and sometimes you find it glaring at you like a spotlight. You can make your reality good enough for as long as you want, everything won't be perfect, that's for sure, your little escapes can help reduce the weight of emotions in your reality that you do not find palatable for the better, you should want to enjoy your reality and thrive on whatever field level you find yourself.