THE IP MAG

Hi, I'm Sam,  Very often I find myself standing on the lane between overthinking and what actually happens in real life. When I engage myself in overthinking, nine out of ten times It has everything to do with me, like what I'd say if I found myself in a particular situation, how I would react, or how I would cross a bridge if I had burned the bridge while crossing the first time. I always console myself and say that overthinking is something I do to get myself ready to confront situations that are probably not the most comfortable in a normal or less awkward manner but the truth is that overthinking for me is more graphic than I would like to admit, I exert so much energy when I overthink about a situation that I sometimes physically feel exhausted when I'm done. This has made me put so much consideration into what I use my energy to overthink on. Our realities vary and as such requires different reactions and action from us, to an extent, I do not have contro...

  Hi, I'm Sam, We respond to what we are used to,  no matter what we tell ourselves or what we do, we will always effortlessly run to what we know is familiar, not because it's the best thing or the right answer in the moment but because it's what we know and what we think can help us get some rest while we try to figure out what's next, and while we're there, we think we will still take the next steps but time flies by and we realize that we have been in the familiar longer than we planned. The realization that you've been in the familiar a while longer than you planned can be one of the hardest pills to swallow. The realization is not always innate, something external triggers it but to a degree. A degree that you realize you're not where you are meant to be and just complain and whine about it but not enough to do something about it or a degree to realize that you should be farther than you are but not to regret your reality but also willing to get to the...

Hi, I'm Sam,  There's a piece of advice that we hear that is not our own but is also our own. It comes from within and we do have the creative freedom to call it whatever we want. Our spiritual inclination actually helps us decide what to or what not to call it but we all experience that advice or suggestion. Asides the creative naming, another thing we have is the ultimate decision to listen to it or not, act as we've heard or completely ignore it or act on the modified version. It is very possible to have this instant regret when we do not listen and act on the suggestion because we can not see the long term effect and it is also possible to see the consequences of ignoring that suggestion in the long run. My innate desire to always listen to that voice didn't just come over me suddenly because I felt like listening to something, but after I've had the experiences and seen the outcome of listening and not listening, I didn't think I needed anymore...

Hi, I'm Sam, I have to constantly try my best to remind myself to respond physically to how I feel emotionally, especially in happy occasions because whenever I want something or I'm working toward something, I spend a lot of time thinking about how I should feel in response to achieving that thing that when I finally achieve that feat, I don't react like I've practiced in my head or how a normal person would react if they were in my position. I think I can say that the desire, anticipation, and hardwork to get that particular thing makes me too exhausted to celebrate or react to the achievement as expected. I spent 5 months working toward something and it finally happened and as much as I was excited, grateful and ready to share my testimony, I somehow couldn't get myself, my voice and laughter to match what was happening and how I was really feeling deep down. I came off to myself like nothing had happened or that it didn't happen the way I though...

Hi, I'm Sam, The exciting feeling of butterflies often felt as a result of a new prospect or talking stage starts to fade earlier than anticipated. As a matter of fact, you don't expect the feeling to stop being exciting because with different persons but same expectations comes the feeling and because you never plan to feel that way, you expect it to always be there either with the same person or a completely different person. With some expectations comes the excitement of talking about yourself while realizing that you are not the same person you were few years ago, with each new person comes different likes and dislikes, hobbies, favorite colors and activities. Unknowingly, you respond and program yourself to seem compatible in the moment. No one has ever seen red flags so early when you still feel the excitement during talking stages or you see it but think its something you can tolerate or change until you get over that excitement and start living with a sense ...