THE IP MAG

Hi, I'm Sam ,  It is very possible to live life knowing that nobody thinks of me as much as I think about myself. I am living my life and as such I have to be more concerned about me than anyone else, with this realization, I am able to extend grace to others when I don't feel so much like a priority to them, because they are living their lives as well and they should be more concerned about themselves. Everyone is the main character in their story and have to have that main character energy one way or the other in some areas of their lives if not all. I light up whenever someone takes out time to reach out to me to find out how I am doing. Immediately I see the text or the call, I instantly forget the last time we spoke or was in contact with this person, what matters the most to me in that moment is not make the connection genuine and deep so much that with few sentences or seconds on the phone we are able to fill whatever gap we think was existing from the last t...

Hi, I'm Sam ,  I read somewhere that it takes at least 18 days for a human to form a habit. I've always seen myself as a creature of habit because I love to live a routine life, not that I don't mind occasionally stepping out of the norm and doing exciting things. As a self proclaimed creature of habit, I do not enjoy changing or creating new habits no matter the advantages I stand to gain from the new habit, I just want to stick to what I currently have and not put in the effort to change anything and have to start adjusting to the new routine and fine tuning these new habits. Sticking to the familiar has saved me from so much unnecessary headaches and it has also made me very predictable in any kind of relationship I find myself in. I feel like an open book and enjoy the fact that I don't have to say much before my actions are believed. Its very easy for people to know what I can do and what I cannot be caught dead doing. Some days I feel joy towards being...

Hi, I'm Sam ,  I drew the map of my life really early in life with zero understanding of what life really is. I had this eagerness to grow up so fast almost like i was desperate for it because I needed to start doing things contained in my map. While I was curious about doing these older things, I couldn't find the curiosity to map out my younger years, It didn't bother me what foundation the older me would build on, I didn’t bother to grasp how important the foundation was so I didn't care to map it out. Maybe I didn't feel my younger years were my responsibility as I was still under my parents and didn't have any choice but to do whatever they said so they should have the map, but thinking about it now, if I really thought they should have the map to how my teenage years should go,  why was I not curious enough to ask about it or desire to look at it because that should have some sort of influence on the map I was drawing up for my adult years. De...

Hi, I'm Sam ,  Its one thing to wield power and its another things to know that there's a kind of power you wield, its also one thing to know that there's some kind of power you wield and another thing to know how much of that power you wield and its pretty normal to not care about how much power you wield. I always like to remind myself that as little as I may be right now in the world, there's some sort of power I proudly wield and I am not interested in knowing how much of the power, I just want to always acknowledge that I have powers and one of those powers is the power to change my mind.  Coming from a place of not realizing that the power to change my mind is such a powerful power to have, I've allowed myself to be in such terrible and unpalatable situations because I wanted to play nice and not be tagged as " indecisive " and that is a tag I was very unwilling to have stuck on me, not because I was actually indecisive but don't want...

Hi, I'm Sam ,  I have this desire to ensure that the contents of my brain see the light and to do this I've had to think it through, argue with myself about what content should come first, or as I move on or should never see the light no matter how much I desire it and tried my best to weigh the pros and cons. Some days I am able to list more cons than pros and some days the pros win. As I have the desire to flash a light on the contents, I also desire to keep some of the contents to myself. My creative fears started from answering some questions that no one else but me is going to care for the answer, I tried to scrutinize myself and the contents of my brain so much that when someone else questions it, I will have the correct response or not let it sting as much. While trying to scrutinize, ask and answer questions myself, I often walk the path of self sabotage by focusing on things that make the contents unique but I flip those things to mean weakness and the ulti...