Hi, I'm Sam,
One of my favorite things to do in this life is road tripping especially if I have to drive for the most part of the trip but as much as I love the idea and actually going on a road trip, I know the people to embark on such with and I also know the people that I don't mind using the last money in my account to book a flight for them in order to get the trip over with in no time. I love when someone is as excited about a road trip as much as I am, putting thoughts into playlist, snacks/ food, outfits, route. The excitement going to fill up the fuel tank because we know how long the journey is, making stops to buy things, relieve ourselves, buy things in traffic etc is a feeling I do not complain about at all. But unlike road trips, I've come to the point in life to experience the unavoidable, that there are indeed things in life that i will have to do and experience alone. And thinking about it, there are so many things in life we will have to do and experience alone, we just don't spend so much time thinking about it.
My dreams are mine alone, even literal dreams are mine and mine alone, it doesn't matter who I share the dreams I had while I was sleeping with, the emotions I experienced in the dreams will remain fresh for as long as I remember the dream. Discussing the dreams with someone else will not dilute the emotions and even trying to make sense of the dream especially a bad one will not take the feeling away. Just like everyone else, I have big dreams which I honestly believe are in alignment with the purpose God put me on this earth for and I've also understood that its going to be just God and I in working it out for the most part and this is not about getting support from people. If I don't do the work and believing that God's got me, there is really nothing that people around me are going to support me on. I'm just going to be that guy who is going in whatever direction the wind blows and in the midst of wind direction supporting others pursuing their own dreams.
The loneliness felt when pursing your dreams is something we all need to talk about because I know that's a feeling everyone seriously pursuing a goal has felt at some point or the other. Especially when you're pursuing something you feel very passionate about but lack words to properly explain it because you're still figuring it out yourself. Days have come and gone when I don't even bother to get outside encouragement because some days my work is out there and some days I have to work on the back end and people may begin to wonder if that's it, they wonder if I am taking a break or have completely given up. Some may give a sigh of relief because if I have given up, it means they do not need to pretend to support what they do not understand. I am thankful every waking day that I understood that I have to give myself all the encouragement I will need to keep pushing and if any outside encouragement comes, it can be added to the amount I already possess. This mentality has kept me sane and away from keeping a mental note of who is supporting and how they're supporting. The downside to leaning 80% or completely on outside encouragement is that the outside encouragement determines how much passion and work to put in, the external supports ultimately determines if you can continue going or when to give up when the support dries up. The same way that people will love you the way you love yourself is also the same way people will support when they know that they're only adding to what you already have in a substantial quantity. Believe it or not, people feel pressured when they find out that you rely so much on them for support to keep at doing something and truly no one would like to feel such pressure especially for something that isn't theirs and something that they don't completely understand as well.
There is a little gap between people who are actively purposing a goal and those who haven't fully committed to pursuing at set goal. The life experienced by someone who is actively pursuing their goal is a life you can't completely explain to someone who hasn't gone down that path. Some days your explanation for passion may sound condescending and some days it may sound encouraging and some days like you're speaking gibberish. There's a level of shamelessness that comes with full understanding and zeal in pursuing your goal, and some may feel like that level of shamelessness can't be found in them but then life happens and they find out the things in them that only serious passion for something can bring out. You find yourself explaining things without being asked, you begin to dread misunderstanding because there's something you're working towards that the idea that you don't owe anyone any explanation just won't suffice. After putting that much energy into something, giving up becomes the last thing on your mind especially if you are truly in for the long haul and if you completely believe that is what you are meant to do in your life and a gift you are truly happy that you possess.
My dreams are mine alone, even literal dreams are mine and mine alone, it doesn't matter who I share the dreams I had while I was sleeping with, the emotions I experienced in the dreams will remain fresh for as long as I remember the dream. Discussing the dreams with someone else will not dilute the emotions and even trying to make sense of the dream especially a bad one will not take the feeling away. Just like everyone else, I have big dreams which I honestly believe are in alignment with the purpose God put me on this earth for and I've also understood that its going to be just God and I in working it out for the most part and this is not about getting support from people. If I don't do the work and believing that God's got me, there is really nothing that people around me are going to support me on. I'm just going to be that guy who is going in whatever direction the wind blows and in the midst of wind direction supporting others pursuing their own dreams.
The loneliness felt when pursing your dreams is something we all need to talk about because I know that's a feeling everyone seriously pursuing a goal has felt at some point or the other. Especially when you're pursuing something you feel very passionate about but lack words to properly explain it because you're still figuring it out yourself. Days have come and gone when I don't even bother to get outside encouragement because some days my work is out there and some days I have to work on the back end and people may begin to wonder if that's it, they wonder if I am taking a break or have completely given up. Some may give a sigh of relief because if I have given up, it means they do not need to pretend to support what they do not understand. I am thankful every waking day that I understood that I have to give myself all the encouragement I will need to keep pushing and if any outside encouragement comes, it can be added to the amount I already possess. This mentality has kept me sane and away from keeping a mental note of who is supporting and how they're supporting. The downside to leaning 80% or completely on outside encouragement is that the outside encouragement determines how much passion and work to put in, the external supports ultimately determines if you can continue going or when to give up when the support dries up. The same way that people will love you the way you love yourself is also the same way people will support when they know that they're only adding to what you already have in a substantial quantity. Believe it or not, people feel pressured when they find out that you rely so much on them for support to keep at doing something and truly no one would like to feel such pressure especially for something that isn't theirs and something that they don't completely understand as well.
There is a little gap between people who are actively purposing a goal and those who haven't fully committed to pursuing at set goal. The life experienced by someone who is actively pursuing their goal is a life you can't completely explain to someone who hasn't gone down that path. Some days your explanation for passion may sound condescending and some days it may sound encouraging and some days like you're speaking gibberish. There's a level of shamelessness that comes with full understanding and zeal in pursuing your goal, and some may feel like that level of shamelessness can't be found in them but then life happens and they find out the things in them that only serious passion for something can bring out. You find yourself explaining things without being asked, you begin to dread misunderstanding because there's something you're working towards that the idea that you don't owe anyone any explanation just won't suffice. After putting that much energy into something, giving up becomes the last thing on your mind especially if you are truly in for the long haul and if you completely believe that is what you are meant to do in your life and a gift you are truly happy that you possess.
