Hi, I'm Sam,
I know everyone says this "I am my own competition" and everyone really should say it even when they don't believe it, say it as often as you can till you believe it. I wake up everyone morning and strive to make little decisions that will lead to the person and life I aspire to live in the nearest future. Sometimes the future is vivid enough to picture and sometimes I get greedy and try to belittle the imagination by telling myself that whatever it is that I can imagine is not scary enough because they say that our dreams should scare us but no one talks about how the scary dream can feel so far away and out of reach that I start to think that I'm not doing enough because the little things that I'm doing in the moment is no where close to what will help me achieve the scary ambitions. I've conditioned my mind to appreciate the ambitions that I can actually fit into my imaginations but also have it at the back of my mind they are like stepping stones to the scary ambitions and that i can only get to that scary ambition when I work towards meeting the vividly imagined ambitions.
It's pretty normal and expected to plan in the upward trajectory but having those plans and consistently working towards them cannot fully prepare you for the next steps as much as you'd expect. The next levels in our plans doesn't always come as we plan them and as such it still feels new and different when you keep going from one level to the next. For some people, they feel as though their upward movement skipped some steps and they don't know exactly how to react to it. On one hand they're glad they they moving at all and also grateful they're moving in that direction but on the other hand they can feel overwhelmed and then imposter syndrome sets in and they spend the better part of the beginning of that next level trying to equip and convince themselves that they deserve to be where they are and that they can perform and come out shinning and of course they shine way above their expectations but can you imagine what they can achieve with the time they spend fighting off imposter syndrome?
Instead of making small goals which will lead to bigger goals, some have mentors who are 10,15 or even 20 years ahead of them and honestly speaking that can be very tricky and overwhelming because you're trying to focus on the point you're currently at while having the reality of what years of hardwork looks like and while you might treat that as what it is, which is an inspiration, there is a chance you might lose sight of the process you're in and going through and try to achieve 20 years of reward in few months and when your finally find out that it is impossible you start feeling like a failure and it doesn't help that you didn't see your mentors go through your phase, all you have to hold on to are stories that they tell you of how they were in certain situations and how they got out them and as much as that is the truth, it may not completely align with what you're going through but there is always something tangible to take out of those stories and you can only see or hear it if you really want to.
I have tried my best to subscribe to the mentor-mentee technique but for some reason I just can't wrap my head around it and I have come to accept that and just focus and master that which works for me. Maybe I don't have the complete understanding of what the mentor and mentee technique can do for me because whenever I think of it I feel like I'm boxed in and have to always listen and apply their advice and notes and I truly don't think that's a terrible idea, I just have not gotten calm enough to listen and do and I also feel like I'm trying to walk through uncharted paths in this part of the world and I cannot completely articulate the things I want to achieve and as such my "mentor" may be confused as to the way to direct me on and that's only if the mentor does not think I'm delusional with what I want to do. So at this point, all I can do is to watch and pay attention from afar and learn from as much persons that I can. I know the traits I need to go on my journey and I can also spot it from afar. I just have to be focused, learn as much as I can from whoever I can either from a distance or as close as I possible can get.
I think i love the idea of getting to my next step without knowing it because I am completely focused on something else other than what I am doing that will lead to the next step. The sweetest way to get to the next level is to get to that level without knowing it, that way you're not obsessing over what it could be and trying to identify what that step isn't, then you realize that you're focused on that which truly brought you to the next level which is complete focus on your work, discipline, God and consistency.
It's pretty normal and expected to plan in the upward trajectory but having those plans and consistently working towards them cannot fully prepare you for the next steps as much as you'd expect. The next levels in our plans doesn't always come as we plan them and as such it still feels new and different when you keep going from one level to the next. For some people, they feel as though their upward movement skipped some steps and they don't know exactly how to react to it. On one hand they're glad they they moving at all and also grateful they're moving in that direction but on the other hand they can feel overwhelmed and then imposter syndrome sets in and they spend the better part of the beginning of that next level trying to equip and convince themselves that they deserve to be where they are and that they can perform and come out shinning and of course they shine way above their expectations but can you imagine what they can achieve with the time they spend fighting off imposter syndrome?
Instead of making small goals which will lead to bigger goals, some have mentors who are 10,15 or even 20 years ahead of them and honestly speaking that can be very tricky and overwhelming because you're trying to focus on the point you're currently at while having the reality of what years of hardwork looks like and while you might treat that as what it is, which is an inspiration, there is a chance you might lose sight of the process you're in and going through and try to achieve 20 years of reward in few months and when your finally find out that it is impossible you start feeling like a failure and it doesn't help that you didn't see your mentors go through your phase, all you have to hold on to are stories that they tell you of how they were in certain situations and how they got out them and as much as that is the truth, it may not completely align with what you're going through but there is always something tangible to take out of those stories and you can only see or hear it if you really want to.
I have tried my best to subscribe to the mentor-mentee technique but for some reason I just can't wrap my head around it and I have come to accept that and just focus and master that which works for me. Maybe I don't have the complete understanding of what the mentor and mentee technique can do for me because whenever I think of it I feel like I'm boxed in and have to always listen and apply their advice and notes and I truly don't think that's a terrible idea, I just have not gotten calm enough to listen and do and I also feel like I'm trying to walk through uncharted paths in this part of the world and I cannot completely articulate the things I want to achieve and as such my "mentor" may be confused as to the way to direct me on and that's only if the mentor does not think I'm delusional with what I want to do. So at this point, all I can do is to watch and pay attention from afar and learn from as much persons that I can. I know the traits I need to go on my journey and I can also spot it from afar. I just have to be focused, learn as much as I can from whoever I can either from a distance or as close as I possible can get.
I think i love the idea of getting to my next step without knowing it because I am completely focused on something else other than what I am doing that will lead to the next step. The sweetest way to get to the next level is to get to that level without knowing it, that way you're not obsessing over what it could be and trying to identify what that step isn't, then you realize that you're focused on that which truly brought you to the next level which is complete focus on your work, discipline, God and consistency.
