WHAT AM I ASHAMED OF?

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 Hi, I’m Sam,

 

Growing up my father always said this quote "Don't be ashamed of anything except Sin" and he was never shy to say it to whoever cared to listen and whenever someone would point out he was doing something seemingly below his level like washing the car or sweeping. I was just thinking the other day, what are we ashamed of in recent times?, and looking at the current trend of content on social media, I don’t think a lot of people seem to be ashamed of a lot of things because people share so much that they leave very little to the imagination of other social media users.

 

But I do not think shame is really what should control what we put out on social media; self-respect should. Granted, if shame is what would make us respect ourselves on the streets of social media, then by all means I think that works but to some degree, a lot of people have gotten it twisted that they are ashamed of the wrong things in recent times. It is almost as though people have flipped the scenario, they are ashamed of what they should not be ashamed of and open about what should stay personal.

                           



“What Am I ashamed of?” the question is on a personal level, which means you are allowed to choose what you consider shameful. No one is cool enough to make a list for you to tell you what you should consider shameful but self-awareness and common sense can also tell you what is important but shouldn’t cause you shame.

 

When it comes to this, I try to be very conscious of it, I correct myself whenever I catch myself slipping. You tend to get into complicated situations when you don't identify the things to stay away from. You can catch yourself living way above your means because God forbid someone finds out you can't afford certain things at a particular time and the shame that comes with what others think is not worth it. No matter what we do, we can never control people’s reactions to us or what we do so I don’t see the reason why I should be ashamed of what someone else thinks of me.

 

It is pointless to be ashamed of your reality; yes, your reality may not be the best but there is no reason to be ashamed of it more especially when you are working very hard to change your reality from whatever it is to what you will be proud of. Being ashamed of your reality is like denying yourself and in some cases that is where insecurity, inferiority complex, and self-pity start from. There are things in our lives that no matter what we do, we cannot change until we consciously decide to love ourselves and embrace those things. God does not make mistakes and as such everything about us is there to serve and achieve a purpose much greater than we can imagine.

 

When you try to have a conversation with a lot of people these days, you can’t help but notice that they may be ashamed or give importance to the wrong things like using an Apple product, wearing the latest fashion, or some other trivial thing. Some have been unintentionally brainwashed so much that no matter how the situation is analyzed, they would never see anything odd in placing that much importance on such casual material things. As I pointed out earlier, no one is cool enough to tell you what to get excited about and what to be ashamed of, I completely think it’s a personal thing; do things for yourself and how it makes you feel and not for the next individual, have your reasons for doing things but remain teachable and open to changing your school of thoughts on certain things.

 

Shame without repentance is a very tricky one because some of our actions to ourselves or others may require repentance. We are humans and it is completely expected for us to misstep in some situations, our response to those missteps is what ultimately determines or exposes what kind of human we are. How easily do we realize what we have done? How do we feel about our actions? What can we do about what we have done? What have we decided to do about the situation we have created as a result of our actions? Is our response faster when it is about us or when it has everything to do with another individual? The answers to these questions can give us an idea of who we are to ourselves and others; we may need to do better, or keep up the good work and extend Grace to people who misstep. 

 

Shame can be very crippling and destabilizing, you can resolve in your heart not to respond a certain way to things but find yourself doing the very opposite, not because you are not strong enough to stand on your word or because you don’t know better but because we try to belittle how much effect shame already has on us that we want to turn on it in a snap of a finger and it doesn’t work that way. It is a gradual process and give yourself Grace, when you fail to adjust, dust yourself and try again until shame no longer has as much power as it does right now until it loses its hold on you. It takes action to get to the other side but it also starts from the mind and what you have decided to do.

 

Living life without shame can be very freeing because there isn’t any need to impress the wrong set of people, people see you and know you for who you truly are, and trust me people will respect you for that because it is a level so many wish to get to but haven’t been able to.



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